i'll be strong, i'll be wrong, oh but life goes on.

Thank God I'm off school. It's starting to wear me out. If you see me now, you can't tell whether I'm doing a zombie cosplay or that I AM the zombie. (Both are true. Kinda.) And I'm rlly excited for Eid holiday and Eid food and Eid money!!!! Although a 10-days break is nothing to brag about compared to summer, but it's still something to celebrate because I'm very tired. And the fact that I still have loads of work to do is ugh.

Middle school and high school seems like a different alternate universe. The teachers, my parents, and people around me suddenly treat me differently. Like I'm older. Well yeah of course, but have you ever felt like you're the only one in this world who stays the same?

Nothing stays, not this world, not even my sister whose mood changes constantly every 5 second. My friends change. Even my condition changes, I've slipped from one life to another as easy as finishing one book then picking up another. A new adventure, as one says. The only thing that doesn't change is my state of mind. I'm not terrified of change, I could just move along, going with the flow or stuff. But still, everything seems weird to me. Like, a second ago I was there, how the fuck did I get here???

Although everyone expects me to act like a high school kid, to me I'll always be that 12 year old staring at everything, continuously fascinated. I'm always excited to do things but I can't do them the right way. I mess things up and then cry. And I overthink stuff all the time. So much to do, so little time! In 2 years I'd have to choose my college destination. I want to go on a student exchange program. Oh and, the group presentation is next week. Would I fuck shit up this time?

The future scares me. I don't want to have an ordinary life, going to college, graduate, work at a boring-ass office, marry a maybe even more boring guy, and have some kids. I want things to be different, I want to have something to remember, I want people to smile when they read the story of my life. But idk how and I'm really afraid of going to the wrong directions becoz there's no going back this time.

and i have no idea why the sky is there maybe im just feelin very sappy stuff idk


Basically, THIS. She speaks to me on a deep spiritual level, deeper than I have spoken to you above so click her. (Her vlogging style is just like John Green's but the fact that she's a 15 year old fangurl makes her much more relatable. If you're also a fangirl, then check THIS because adflskjfljk!!!)



Throwing out one of Taylor Swift's early shtuff just because.

Enjoy ur weekend or summer or random break or whatever :]
*rides unicorn to the sunset*

from the bottom of the pit right to the top.

im supposed to be doing my homework today but i hate my teacher and I miss blogging so muchhhhhh it hurtz (well at least i have a blog). School is already running for 3 weeks now. Everything went too fast and damn I desperately need long holidays even though I just got out from one. Just nO two and a half months are not enough because there are still so many things to do, and all I did was cram into my desk and going online for the rest of the summer. god im so jealous of u fellow awesome british bloggers who just started your holiday

Although my summer would be 10000000 times better if only there are thrift store around here h4h4h4

well I just got back from this leadership camp, a part of the student orientation program and I only liked the first day where we stayed at school. We slept in classes and we got to choose our roommates soooo I slept with the coolest people I've ever met in the last 3 weeks. I woke up at 4 AM and took a good cold shower. After that we just hung out around the class, talking until 6 AM and it's so much fun. I love school sleepovrs. The next day we take buses to the camping ground. The camp was pretty ugh. home is great.

I didn't take many pictures of my schoolground, sadly. But this is my favorite picture of the first floor hallways at sunrise. The sun shone so dramatically bright like in the movies. And on that moment, I swear I didn't want to be anywhere else but there, and there only.

so this is my friend, she's an otaku (a die hard anime/manga fans, to educate yourself :3) like my old middle school pal, so I think it's safe to say i'm pretty experienced on handling sudden otaku fangirling that happens pretty often. she's great. and late night we were doing a girl talk session under our sleeping bag and we happen to like the same person :]

She loves music, and she was the first person I met during the freshmen academic test. She's really nice too, and there are more cool people I didn't get to take their picture!!

Oh and my school. Now I take bus rides to school. I don't mind them, actually it's like a kind of mini adventure. I could watch people, write about them, and practice my deductions according to how they dress, how they act, or how they hold their phones. one thing I do too much on the summer is fangirl over sherlock so yeah The real struggle is after the rain and the streets are all slippery and wet and SPLASH YOU JUST STEPPED ON YOUR FIRST PUDDLE CONGRATULATIONS (true story haha)

Well this is a Catholic school and I am a Muslim. My mum wants me to go here because a) she went here, and b) the school's got a great rep, she and my dad wants better education for me so yeah. But I got here right when Ramadan starts and I'm going to be fasting for a month. Usually, most of my school friends are Muslim too, so I've got no problem since we're all in this together. But here everyone moves on with their life. They would be drinking from their bottle every 5 minutes like normal guys do. Plus I had to walk and take buses in this hot hot weather. But I'm doing fine! And I have every right to be happy because I'M DOING FINE!!! :DD

Things are going normal here, like normal school goes. The subjects are surely tougher than middle school, and it is so much stricter than public school. There are 2 majors: social studies and science, and I'm in the social studies. This is the first day we're divided into the majors, so we're in a different class than the first one and I HVE ONLY 1 FRIEND IN MY CLASS AND I DONT KNOW ANYONE ALL THE COOL GUISE WERE IN OTHER CLASSES I HATE IT ITS LIKE STARTING OVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!1 but no matter where you are HOMEWORK STILL SUCKS AND ITS JUST SO FRIKKDJIGN MUCHHH I CANT GO ONLINE EVERYDAY LIKE I USED TO AND UGHHHHH

Some guys were there since primary school, and some other were from a different school, but still comes in large cackling pack of wolves. Everything they do feels natural, like they've been doing this for their whole life. Some new acquaintances (since I'm not sure we're friends already ha) of mine has been here since elementary school. I've been to three different elementary schools, and once moved into a new town and I had to start all over again, and then move back in 4 years. It was tiresome, but worth it. I can't imagine being stuck in one place your whole life, never moving. I wonder how it feels like, never having to get used to anything in your life.

A friend from my old school also goes here and she hates it. I didn't agree, nor did I second the statement, but I think we have no right thinking that way. Not yet. It's only been 2 weeks since we stepped in the building with our uniformed faux-leather Mary Janes. You can't judge a school based on your 2 weeks experience, not when you don't give it a shot.

I'm kinda concerned with her. But her problem is getting old. My jaded ole friend is in the same class with me now and she's just being her hating everything old self.



this song has been featured in like every TV ads ever but i'm still not tired of listening it. the acoustic version is just very heartwarming <3<3 and idk guys please give me music recommendation, my music taste is boring me.

Lurf,

Dini :)